When there is no more of you then I can be heard. As a helper from Heavenly Father, I show the way. Since Jesus went back to be with his Father, I came to give you guidance and direction. I show Christ’s commission to go unto the world and give God’s love to the hurt,Continue reading Holy Spirit Says “Let Me Lead You.”
Since losing our house we have been living with friends for over two month now. We have essentially become homeless. I am desperate to get out of this situation. Most days feel hopeless. Homeless people are generally misunderstood and are often treated with disdain. Even friends and family are unable to comprehend the frustrations ofContinue reading Never Give Up On Hope
I have a lot of displaced anger. How do I resolve this destructive feeling? For one thing, if I could just remember what I am angry about. Some of it lies deep in my soul and not even my feelings know what it is. According to my doctor I was sexual abused as a child.Continue reading Keep Calm and Carry On
Searching through the list of feelings on facebook trying to determine how I was feeling, I finally came across the adjective word of broken. I pressed enter and closed the lap top. Then with a runny nose and watery eyes I went to my bedroom and shut the door. I am angry which is reallyContinue reading Broken
Sometimes I think it would be better if I weren’t here. At least no one or my self would have to try and understand my condition. We would not even have to work around it or walk on eggshells because I am having ?“one of those days.” I use to have a lot of genuineContinue reading Recovery Coming but from Where?
Making bargains Open heart wide Understand ?loss Reveal depth of despair Note insecurites Input thoughts Never forget Going somewhere
I pierced my nose December 26. My mom and I talked about getting our noses pierced together. We had decided when she felt better and stronger we’d get our piercing. My daughter reminded me of that conversation between my mother and I. So my daughter suggested, let’s go together, for nana. I have been inContinue reading The Nose Piercing
Today, I feel guilty. Grieving is a long and sometimes complicated process. I did not make good use of the time I had with my mother. And now she is no longer here. My depression magnifies itself along with tears of injustice. Death is not natural. God`s intention for this world was not how itContinue reading Guilt
March 15, 2014. My mom has stage 4 lung cancer. She was given 6 months to live when she was told on September 13, 2013. She completed three rounds of chemo and two radiation treatments in a short time. Then Thanksgiving weekend, she ended up at the hospital for 5 days. High fever, swelling inContinue reading Thy Eternal Will Be Done
Just days before my mother’s death from cancer, she told me six things. I plan to hold them close in my heart and mind. ?I have a hard time remembering things from the past.
For every hardship there must be a blessing. It is all I can tell myself these days. Having endured four family deaths ?in recent years, the last two years have been no better.
After flushing the toilet, the tiny room seemed to vibrate and I found myself almost needing to plug my ears. My whole face grimaced in surprise.